Breath holding. Heart pounding. Anxious for nothing. Body on alert. Mind goes to scary places. Hyper vigilant for nothing. Car accident. Arrested. Shamed. Waiting for something to happen. But nothing ever does. I don’t know who I am. So many limiting beliefs. No where to turn. Always in the past. Missing the present moment. Nothing I can do about it. Where has my life gone? Surviving. Breathing in acceptance. Heart full of compassion. Graced with self-love. Body glimmering. Mind calm.

High blood pressure. In your third trimester of pregnancy, you do not want to hear these three words, especially if you are planning to have a home birth. My blood pressure nearly caused me to have an induction for my first birth and transfer to a hospital birth for my second birth. I wish I had known of the ACEs test so I wouldn't have felt so lost and guilty. For my first birth I was clueless. I did not understand why this was happening to me because I ate a healthy diet, went to boxing...